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pullingthecancercard: showmeyourlookingglass: jakegyllenhaalida...

Thu, 21 Mar 2013 21:04:00 -0400

showmeyourlookingglass:

jakegyllenhaaliday:

durianseeds:

Bone cancer on a human skull.

It’s so tragically beautiful

OWWW!!!!

Hey man, I found a lump in my testicle back in mid January and it's now March. I'm getting it scanned soon. Did you have any symtoms besides the lump whatsoever?

Sat, 09 Mar 2013 22:28:27 -0500

Nope, just a lump.

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Sun, 17 Feb 2013 10:45:08 -0500

diorpaint: Respect to all the cancer survivors - Lil B

Wed, 23 Jan 2013 19:18:06 -0500

diorpaint:

Respect to all the cancer survivors - Lil B

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Mon, 21 Jan 2013 16:51:03 -0500

diorpaint: SHOUTS OUT TO ALL THE CANCER SURVIVORS - Lil B

Tue, 15 Jan 2013 11:10:31 -0500

diorpaint:

SHOUTS OUT TO ALL THE CANCER SURVIVORS - Lil B

macnc40: I literally watched this like 10 times. LMAO

Wed, 05 Dec 2012 10:59:05 -0500

macnc40:

I literally watched this like 10 times. LMAO

itsbruiserbrigade: The LongLiveA$AP tour starts this Friday in...

Thu, 20 Sep 2012 19:15:56 -0400

itsbruiserbrigade:

The LongLiveA$AP tour starts this Friday in the presence of the good people of Providence, Rhode Island.

You can still get tickets to the shows but more importantly you can still cop VIP tickets to hang out with Danny Brown and get a bunch of exclusive VIP Danny Brown stuff here

Reblog this and a couple of lucky rebloggers will be chosen at random to win free VIP entry to the concert date of their choice ( You gotta get yourself there and back, Bruisers ain’t afraid of legwork)

Cop VIP Tickets at future-beat.com/DannyBrown if you too gangster for a lottery system

This is Bruiser Karma, Give back to the Bruiser Community and you can do whatever you want to anyone else.

Breast cancer awareness v. Testicular cancer awareness

Thu, 06 Sep 2012 09:59:05 -0400

Why is it that breast cancer survivors get things like this:

while testicular cancer survivors get things like this:

…really? Nude guys posed in a provocative manner, obviously catering towards women (or I guess gay dudes, too)?? What kind of sense does this make? Neither of these dudes have even had testicular cancer. No scars, full heads of hair, in great (obviously not post-cancer) shape, hell you can’t even see their testicles here and if you could I bet they’d have two of them. This is fucking stupid.

I'll just tell you that I think you're really hot. Chicks dig scars. That's all.

Wed, 25 Jul 2012 16:29:00 -0400

lol thanks

“Alpheus Media produced this short documentary about the...

Tue, 24 Jul 2012 20:16:17 -0400

“Alpheus Media produced this short documentary about the young adult cancer experience with our friends at the Lance Armstrong Foundation (LIVESTRONG). We traveled across the U.S. to connect with college students and young adults, as we explored how they deal with the specific issues they face when diagnosed with cancer.

By telling their stories, the Lance Armstrong Foundation hopes to raise awareness and address the specific burden of young adult cancer survivors across the world. To learn more or to get involved, visit livestrong.org.”

Bit of an update

Sun, 22 Jul 2012 23:57:47 -0400

Haven’t really updated this in a while as there hasn’t been much cancer related stuff going on with me anymore and I don’t really want this blog to turn into just me spamming about my daily life and interests or whatever. I’m not that interesting nor is my daily life. Anyway, on with the update.

I saw my general practitioner last week, which was the first time I’d seen her since December 2010 when I went to her about the lump on my testicle. She referred me to a urologist and from there I just met with my oncologist/surgeon. I went to talk to her about several issues I’ve been having for a while now, like: fast heart rate which I can often feel pounding in my chest, the tremor in my hands, sleep problems, excessive fatigue, back/neck pain, stomach aches, and just generally feeling shitty.

Her and the psychiatrist I see think a lot of it could be tied to depression and anxiety, both of which I’ve had issues with for the better part of a decade now. So I switched up my antidepressant medication again to see if things improve overall. I’m sure some of it can be at least somewhat attributed to that but I don’t think it’s 100% that. The anxiety has definitely gotten worse since having cancer and it’s difficult to talk to people about that since nobody I know has had cancer. I will admit as well that I’ve become somewhat of a hypochondriac. Sometimes I look around online finding conditions that I’m halfway convinced I have or looking up symptoms of other cancers and seeing if I have any.

I’ve pretty much convinced myself I have what’s called “essential tremor” in my hands as I’ve actually had this slight tremor for as long as I can remember, though it got noticeably worse during chemo. It’s not a big deal I just don’t want it to get worse. I’m also suspicious that I might have some disorder akin to POTS (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome) which is basically where your heart rate goes too high when standing and results in overall inefficiency in blood delivery…it’s kind of rare though so doctors want to rule most things out before looking into that.

Oh and while at the doctor they drew some blood to check my testosterone and thyroid levels, though I haven’t gotten the results back yet. The nurse remarked while trying to stick me that I had “the veins of an old man” and that I was “too young for veins like this”, which is of course likely due to the chemotherapy which I had via IV this time last year.

It has been almost exactly one year since I finished chemotherapy. July 25th 2011 was my last day of chemo infusion. It’s weird to think that it’s already been a year. In some ways it seems like a lifetime ago yet then again it’s something I never can forget about. It’s really strange looking back on pictures like the ones I just posted and sorting them all chronologically relative to the cancer. Like “oh this picture was just before I was diagnosed, this one just after my surgery, this one just before chemo” etc…

I think I’m starting to ramble so I’ll stop for now and if anything else seems worth mentioning I’ll do that later.

Found some old pictures from surgery/chemo times that I never...

Sun, 22 Jul 2012 23:35:00 -0400

Found some old pictures from surgery/chemo times that I never did post on here. Figured I should since this blog is mostly about the cancer that I had. This is pretty much all the pictures of me from that time that exist…In retrospect I wish I’d documented it a bit more - at least a picture showing just how thin I got during chemo, like down to 115-120lbs. Can kinda see it in that one pic where I’m standing but not too well.

Also you can see the incision from the orchiectomy (right testicle removal) in the top right picture. Don’t think I ever showed that on here before.

doggies

Fri, 22 Jun 2012 10:19:48 -0400

doggies

i want it

Thu, 21 Jun 2012 10:31:07 -0400

i want it

It's weird to learn that people diagnosed with the same cancer as me around the same time are now dead...

Sun, 03 Jun 2012 19:54:00 -0400

I frequent a testicular cancer support forum (http://www.tc-cancer.com/forum/) and recently I saw that a man who was diagnosed in February of 2011 has passed away. I was diagnosed with a similar cancer pathology in January of that same year…Sometimes I feel like the cancer wasn’t even real, as mine was cured so (relatively) easily. But then I see things like this where people with a spouse and children are dying within months of being diagnosed. It’s just very strange.

The man I’m talking about was Clint Aaron Miller. You can see his obituary here. May he rest in peace.

Also reading about people who, again, had similar types of cancer are having recurrences as much as 10 years post diagnosis is frightening.

Were you scared the whole time you were diagnosed?

Wed, 30 May 2012 08:35:31 -0400

Depends what you mean by the “whole time” i was “diagnosed”. I was pretty scared when I was first told I’d need surgery on my testicle. I wasn’t actually diagnosed until after that surgery though as prior to that they weren’t sure it was cancer. I was most scared after the diagnosis when I had to choose between more surgery, chemotherapy or surveillance though. It was mostly having to choose my own treatment that made me scared, as none of them were easy choices.

Hi i found some lumps in my left testical. im a bit scared to say anything to anyone because i dont want to scare my family

Mon, 28 May 2012 20:27:11 -0400

Well you really need to get it checked out as soon as possible, i.e. see a doctor! By waiting you increase the chance of it being worse when it is finally checked out, which will only serve to scare your family (and yourself) even more.

"Device may inject a variety of drugs without using needles"

Fri, 25 May 2012 11:56:35 -0400

"Device may inject a variety of drugs without using needles":

Fucking finally.

"Newly discovered Mayan calendar goes way past 2012"

Sat, 12 May 2012 18:54:50 -0400

http://www.usatoday.com/tech/science/story/2012-05-08/maya-apocalypse-calendar-2012/54879760/1

Well, darn…I was planning on the world ending. Now what?